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Advent Calendar Day 19 & 20: Not Again

This year has felt like a sort of groundhog day type year, the same stuff over and over again, and I don’t just mean in terms of the mistakes I’ve made. I wish I just meant that. With Monday’s night events it feels all so very familiar, indeed the same things are said all over again. The same hatred and racism is brought to the fore. Lots of things are said but little changes. A lot of people are ignorant of what’s going on in the wider world and they want it to stay that way. Syria seemed like a place far away and so the events there could be ignored, except now such things are happening right on Europe’s doorstep. And some people’s answer, to ban all refugees from entering Europe. To refuse to help the very people who are trying to escape things like this. I don’t know, nothing makes any sense, I’m not sure anything ever did. I just don’t understand how anyone could be so blinkered and ignorant not to care what’s going on there. The fact it’s so faraway should make no difference, nor that the people are of a different nationality or religion. People are people no matter where they’re from. It certainly doesn’t feel right to be celebrating Christmas whilst all this is going on.

Monday was not a good day anyway, and it become less of one because of what I woke up to. Just when you think you have a shot at getting back on track something else goes wrong. In reality I don’t think it had a shot of going right, I just wanted to believe it could. Everything feels just about as pointless as it’s ever done, yet I can’t stop writing or doing any of this. I’ve seen what happens when I do that, no matter how pointless it seems you have to carry on. A few days ago (I’m not sure which one exactly) I was watching The Counsellor, I don’t know why I decided to rewatch it, I didn’t think much of it the first time round. I felt drawn to it for some reason. I saw it at the cinema when it was released with a friend. Before seeing it I thought it would be good and they thought the opposite, after seeing it our positions were reversed. They said it was better than they expected and I was disappointed with it. I’m not sure I can articulate why exactly, I do however know why it angered me. The main character doesn’t care about the violence in Mexico when he has the potential to make money from it, he only cares when it affects him, when it’s someone he loves that gets hurt. Which is kind of like the situation now I suppose. The majority of people don’t care what’s happening somewhere else as long as it’s not affecting them. I’m not sure why it bothers me so much or why I can’t stop thinking about all this, maybe it’s because I’m often accused of lacking empathy, clearly that’s not true.

I have plenty of distractions but none of them are working, I don’t feel much like watching football, I couldn’t focus on tonight’s game in which Dortmund drew 1-1 with Augsburg. I don’t think the game made any difference, had I watched Gladbach’s game I probably would have felt the same. It’s a good thing I didn’t watch their game in fact, I would have felt even worse. After losing again there’s a good chance Gladbach will be parting ways with Andre Schubert before Christmas. I hope Wednesday’s game does a better job of distracting me, though at the same time it feels wrong but then almost everything does. Even writing this but I had to, I couldn’t not write it. As suffocating as routine is it can be comforting too, and sometimes it’s a little of both. Truth is without routine I wouldn’t know what to do.

Speaking of routine that brings me to the final part of the post, the advent calendars. Behind door number 19 in the Freiburg one was summer signing Janik Harberer and in the Dortmund one Andre Schürrle. And behind door number 20 was Julian Schuster and Roman Weidenfeller. Harberer scored his first Bundesliga goal the weekend before last against Leverkusen, he also got the assist for Niederlechner’s equaliser against Schalke last weekend:

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Borussia Dortmund v Sparta Prague friendly – 19/01/2016

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Borussia Dortmund v Jeonbuk Hyundai Motors friendly – 15/01/2016

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Advent Calendar Day 11: Mr Cool, the Second Roman & the Collectible Decision

Behind door number eleven in the Freiburg calendar was defender Marc-Oliver Kempf. In the DFB one was the card of “Mr Cool,” midfielder Toni Kroos and finally in the Dortmund one was my second favourite Roman, German Roman Weidenfeller who has of course found himself dethroned from his spot as no.1 keeper by the arrival of my favourite Roman, the former Freiburg keeper and current Swiss international Roman Bürki:

Toni Kroos - DFB card 2015-16 1 Toni Kroos - DFB card 2015-16 2 Roman Weidenfeller - Dortmund advent calendarToday went exactly as I didn’t want it to go. A late night last night because of a new chapter I started working on, it was one of those things I had to start just then. I could have just made a note of the idea and tried to sleep but I couldn’t let it go. As pleased as I am with what I’ve written I most likely should have left it alone and gone to bed. I didn’t mean to stay up so late but then you never mean to, it just kind of happens. So I have twelve new pages which is great but on the other hand I’ve wasted a whole day. A day which could have been spent writing my post on e5 & 6 of The Bridge, a post I’ve not even started yet.

Getting up so late meant I woke up just in time for Sandhausen’s game, not an ideal situation. Lately it feels like I’ve only been getting up to watch football, as if nothing else is worth getting out of bed for. I don’t know if that’s a good or a bad thing. Regardless of which it is I had to watch Sandhausen’s game, this weekend’s games are the reverse of the fixtures that took place on MD1, so as far as possible I want to see all the games I watched on opening weekend. Freiburg don’t play till Sunday when they visit 1.FC Nürnberg. As much as I want to see a good game I’d be happier with them keeping a clean sheet, or at least not conceding three goals like they did on MD1. Of course they did score six themselves but that’s not the point, at this point goal difference means everything. I don’t care how many they score, I can live without another nine goal thriller, I don’t need them to win 3-0 or anything like that. As long as they take all three points and they’re more organized defensively I’ll be happy.

I’ve not really needed to do anything so far today, the biggest decision I’ve had to make so far was whether or not to get up to watch Sandhausen’s game. That was up until I found a certain collectible online. Something which initially I thought I had to have. Upon giving the matter some more thought I realised that was not the case. Taking into consideration the financial side of things and whether or not having this particular item was a good idea I decided otherwise. As much as I feel like I need it, I know I don’t really. Having a card from a game that wasn’t even played, at a stadium I hate and with associations that I just can’t forget, it’s just not a good idea. Not to mention the fact that from a financial perspective it would have required some serious juggling, I could afford it but not without moving some things around and not without dipping into the money set aside for the Jogi and Hansi collectibles I’m in the process of obtaining. Pictures and clippings of them is a much better addition to my collection than that card, I know this, and in a few days I’ll know I’m right. Plus I’m meant to be getting over what happened, having in my possession a reminder of that night is probably not a great idea.

I may not have gotten that particular collectible but I did get something I want today, my new DFB polo-shirt. This one is rather special because it has the Mercedes logo on it and has Mercedes Benz written on the back, just like the ones that are officially issued to players and the coaching staff:

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Advent Calendar Day 6

Behind door number six in the Freiburg calendar was Lukas Kübler. In the DFB one there was not one card but four. No doubt deliberate to match the fourth card, which was the first of Germany’s stars, the first time they won the World Cup in 1954. The other three are the replacement Schneider, goalkeeper Roman Weidenfeller and team captain Bastian Schweinsteiger. Joining them from the Dortmund calendar is the fastest man in the Bundesliga, current top scorer with seventeen goals Pierre-Emerick Aubameyang.

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One final football related thing I have to mention is Thomas Tuchel’s reaction to Dortmund’s winning goal yesterday. So good that I had to make a GIF of it. He he has that in common with Jogi and Christian Streich, he provides plenty of good moments for GIFs and videos, that’s for sure:

Thomas_Tuchel_goal_celebration_Wolfsburg_v_DortmundAfter watching the latest episodes of The Bridge last night I was no longer in such a good mood. They made for thoroughly depressing viewing, the scene where Saga’s mother approaches her in the station I found particularly bothersome. The way she tried to manipulate her and to get a rise out of her made for very painful viewing. It reminded me of a few things that I’d rather forget. As a result my previous happiness over Freiburg’s very satisfactory victory over Union Berlin was nowhere to be found. Apart from not getting enough sleep Friday night, the day was going fine until then. That scene turned an otherwise good day into a “what’s the point” kind of day. I felt much the same way when I got up. Staying in bed and feeling sorry for myself wasn’t really an option, not if I wanted to watch the repeat of Dortmund’s game. I didn’t want to get up but I made myself, figuring that I’d have to make myself get up later anyway so I may as well do so now. And if I got up later I would not only be annoyed with myself for staying in bed but for missing Dortmund’s game too.

Making myself get up was the right decision. I’m still tired and only in a slightly better mood but I’m glad I got up. Everyday I allow myself to stay in bed like that it lessens the chances of getting back into a good routine. This week I made all the same mistakes as last week, it went almost exactly the same way. It was the exact same night I stayed up all night. I made similar mistakes in other ways too, spending too much money for one thing. It’s not like I’m the picture of responsibility normally, this isn’t hugely out of character for me. But it is a little more reckless than I usually am. It’s not the fact I was reckless or what I spent the money on that’s out of character. It’s my reaction to it, I don’t seem to particularly care or be worried by it. That’s what unusual. I know I’m being irresponsible, I know I should try to rein it in a little. But I just don’t seem to care or be at all motivated to make an effort to do so.

I feel like that about most things right now. I don’t really know why, I don’t think there’s anything wrong right now, nothing major anyway. This Christmas is certainly a major improvement on last year. To name the obvious, Freiburg are at the opposite end of the table. Of course it’s not the same table, and whilst I would rather them be in the Bundesliga, even in the bottom third, instead of being top of the 2. Bundesliga it’s still something to be pleased with. Whatever happens their final game before Christmas won’t be as miserable as last year.

Everything else is for the most part ok too, I have lots of projects to work on and plenty to keep busy with. I have a stack of very interesting books to read. Plus I should have the money to buy the new Germany away shirt soon and a few other things beside. Yet still I don’t feel happy. I’m doing everything I normally do. I’m trying to keep busy. I have provisional plans for next Tuesday and if all goes to plan should get to give them their gifts in time for Christmas. I know at least what’s bothering me in regards to this, the unknown, the waiting. Not knowing for sure or not. I find waiting to be difficult at the best of times but now it’s simply unbearable.

There’s another thing from The Bridge I can’t stop thinking about. Something that Claes the writer said about being happy. When people ask how you are most people will say, even if they’re not. He asks what happens if you said you weren’t, and why don’t people say they aren’t fine. I never tell people I’m not fine, I’m not sure if I even can. I put a lot of effort into the opposite, into not giving away that I’m not fine. Sometimes though it’s not enough and people notice anyway. It was stupid of me to think that my odd sleeping patterns from the last two weeks would go unnoticed. It was also stupid of me to think it wouldn’t affect my behaviour in anyway. Truth is I’d given no thought to the matter, if I had I would have noticed how distracted I’ve been and how I’ve been even more strange than usual. Apparently it was like I had a hangover, which is funny considering I drink on average no more than five beers a year.

If I’d gotten some more sleep and was paying more attention I would have also would have noticed earlier how so much of what I’m writing is very depressing. When the person who I gave a few chapters to read asked why I was writing such dark stuff lately I said I didn’t know. Maybe then I really didn’t know or I simply didn’t or couldn’t say the truth. Which is because I feel like it. I suppose that would have counted as telling them how I feel, and that’s just not me. I refuted that Matze is in anyway representative of me and my own feelings. I wasn’t entirely truthful there and deliberately so. I don’t want them knowing that. In a lot of my recent chapters Matze is angry, not about anything in particular, just angry in general. But it’s not how he feels that’s important, it’s the fact that he can allow someone to comfort or to help him when everything gets too much. Because I can’t, writing about it as close as I can get. I wish I could let someone help me, it would certainly make my life easier.

Chemnitzer FC v Borussia Dortmund – DFB Pokal 1st round 2015/16

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Borussia Dortmund v Wolfsberger AC (Europa League qualifier)

Videos of the pre-match show which contains interviews with Marco Reus, Roman Bürki and Thomas Tuchel. Then the post match interviews with Marco Reus and Thomas Tuchel, and all the goals. To finish pictures of both Romans, Mathias Ginter and Sven Bender:

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