I may be playing catch up in other regards but not in the case of this season’s new Bundesliga album.This time round I’ve gotten it not long after it was released. It’s a lot less fun knowing Freiburg aren’t in there but doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy it. Though I can’t help feel this collection is doomed from the start. The reason being my limited edition Thomas Müller sticker was not in the starter pack as promised, neither were the customary four packets of stickers. Given the way the packet was ripped open it’s obvious someone somewhere along the line helped themselves to Thomas and the others. Stupid limited edition stickers, I’ll have to get all of them online because they only come with certain German magazines.
Other than that and Freiburg only getting two stickers, the badge and kits I quite like this season’s album. I’d like it a lot more if they had a picture or a sticker for the coaches. That’s weird, Topps make the Premier League album too and that has a picture of the coach yet the Bundesliga one doesn’t. One feature I do like is the section for the all time top goal scorers and players who’ve played the most games. There’s a downside to that however, because if Freiburg hadn’t gotten relegated Jogi would be on there. The other positive about the album is each team has four pages instead of two meaning there’s more stickers to collect, 439 this season instead of 300. The major source of frustration is that I’m still waiting for a Freiburg sticker of Nils Petersen. Last season I had to make do with his Bremen one, this season I have nothing. At least I will have one of striker Florian Niederlechner because despite him being loaned out to Freiburg he’s included on Mainz’s page. Plus there is of course Roman Bürki’s Dortmund, not to mention Matze’s. Neither of which I have yet. This isn’t something I like, more I’m amused by it. Freiburg share their page with FSV Frankfurt, Vincenzo Grifo’s former team.
In my first few packets I got Köln’s badge, Andre Schürrle, Aytac Sulu, Arminia Bielefeld’s kits, Philipp Lahm and Lukas Hradecky. Köln is of course a Hansi team. As for why Andre Schürrle’s so special to warrant a mention, I just thought it was funny to get his sticker a few days after his hat-trick against H96. To make it even funnier I got both their team stickers. Bielefeld is of course who Freiburg defeated 4-1 yesterday afternoon. And Philipp Lahm needs no introduction, Hradecky is on the notables list simply for being a good keeper. And Sulu just for being very likeable.
It feels like I’m always playing catch-up at the moment in regards to pretty much everything. In the main I feel like I’m always catching up on sleep. But you can’t do that forever. If you keep saying I’ll catch up next week eventually there won’t be a next week. The longer you let it go on for the bigger the pile of things to catch up on gets. I know that and yet I still can’t snap out of it. All my projects start out well and they all end the same way. That is they don’t really end at all, I just fall behind and never catch up. I slowly stop working on them and never get back to it.
I don’t want that to happen here, I want to finish this one at least. Even if it’s late, I still want to complete it. This month would be perfect to knuckle down and start working through the backlog. It is after all an international month, Germany have two friendlies at the end of the month. It would be great to get at least halfway through the backlog by then. If I made sure there were no distractions surely I could at least do that. On the subject of distractions avoiding any more friendship related drama is necessary on this count. It would be a good thing anyway but becomes more important in this context.
It’s not just sleep I’m catching up on, in a way it’s time itself. Only now are the events of last week becoming clear to me. Though I have to admit I had some help. Rather than me endlessly obsessing over it I talked it through with someone, a person whom in comparison to me is a responsible adult. Evidently they are someone who has a better understanding of people and relationships than I do. It’s a conversation which was a post-match analysis of sorts. Looking at what happened, what could have gone better and how I could have acted differently to bring that about. Not only that but they took the time to explain why it went the way it did. To explain it’s not what I said but how I said it. To get to the point I was too blunt about it and perhaps a little insensitive. There’s nothing wrong with sharing your feelings, especially when you’ve been asked to but you still have to consider how what you’re saying could affect someone else.
I won’t lie, it still doesn’t really make much sense to me but at least I know I was wrong and why. It’s far better and more constructive than me obsessing over it by myself. I guess accepting help from other people isn’t always a bad thing. I’m no less confused about everything else but at least that’s not bothering me. One of the reasons I’m feeling a little out of sorts this week is because it’s “die englische Woche” as the Germans call it, meaning there’s midweek games. In fact this week there’s football on every night of the week if you count the regional league game that was on Monday night. This afternoon is a homecoming of sorts for Freiburg goalkeeper Alexander Schwolow because they’re visiting newly promoted Arminia Bielefeld which is the team he spent last season on loan at, helping them win promotion to the second tier and getting to the quarter finals of the DFB Pokal. Funnily enough one of the teams they knocked out was Gladbach, funny because at the time the team contained former Freiburg striker Max Kruse.
Freiburg are back to winning ways, after getting off to a bad start losing their firsts two, they went on to win the following two games. Still Bielefeld might prove to be a tough challenge, they certainly did when they visited the Schwarzwald Stadion. The final score was 2-2 and only because of a last minute goal by Lucas Hufnagel. Bielefeld may be small and are hovering just above the relegation battle but they are not to be taken for granted.
Whilst I’m not obsessing over what happened last week there is one thought troubling me. I mean one other than what game to watch tonight, I’m having trouble picking between Bayern v Mainz and Darmstadt v Dortmund. Besides that I’m wondering what the point is in having friends at all. That’s probably not the right way to put it. I think it’s better to say I’m thinking that not having friends can make for a lonely experience but having them can cause as many problems as it solves. Maybe I’m just not cut out for it. This friendship is going the exact same way as the one that came before it. It took a step too close to becoming something more and I couldn’t deal with that. After the previous friendship ended I spent close to a year not really spending time with anyone. Maybe that’s what I need, some time alone. Maybe I’m just burnt out and need some recharging time. I’ve wondered sometimes how all of this would work if I ever got to live by myself. I doubt then I would have any energy or resources left over for something as far down the list as social time. It’s something that may have to be sacrificed anyway.