They definitely kept the best till last as far as the stickers are concerned, Toni Kroos is a pretty damn good Christmas present to get. Though I’m plenty happy with my real life gifts too. That’s one of the best things about a German Christmas (other than Bratwurst at the Christmas market that is), getting your presents a day early. It means I get a head start on playing my new PC games, at least I’ll have plenty to occupy myself with whilst the Bundesliga takes it’s winter break.
And now of course the most important part of the post, the best of Jogi from July to December, with a little bit of Hansi thrown in for good measure:
Joachim Löw & Hansi Flick at Hoffenheim v Liverpool – CLQ 2017-18
Joachim Löw at H96 v Schalke 04 2017/18
The Jogi Löw Highlights – Tschechien v Deutschland (2017)
The Jogi Löw Highlights – Deutschland v Norwegen (2017)
Joachim Löw at Leverkusen v HSV 2017/18
Joachim Löw pre-match show – Nordirland v Deutschland (2017)
The Jogi Löw Highlights – Deutschland v Aserbaidschan (2017)
Joachim Löw post-match interview – Deutschland v Aserbaidschan (2017)
Posted in Die Mannschaft, Fußball, Germany, Hansi Flick, Jogi Löw, Manuel Neuer, World Cup 2018 Qualifiers
Tagged Hans-Dieter Flick, Joachim "Jogi" Löw, Manuel Neuer, Mesut Özil, Toni Kroos
Things haven’t exactly been good on the writing front (or any other for that matter) so taking on the challenge of posting every day may not be the best thing to do right now. Not least because the challenge is incomplete anyway because for reasons I don’t understand it proved impossible to get a Freiburg calendar. At first that gave me the perfect excuse not to even bother trying doing this, though I didn’t really need an excuse. The same excuse I use for everything else these days probably would have sufficed, that is the excuse of “I can’t be bothered.”
But seeing the contents of the DFB advent calendar I decided I had to at least give it a shot, even more so when behind door number one I got Jogi’s sticker and Manuel Neuer’s card. In place of the Freiburg calendar I had to get something and seeing as how the Bayern one was too expensive and there’s no reason to get a Dortmund one anymore I took the only logical option, I went with Matze and got a Borussia Mönchengladbach one. Though on that count I was to be disappointed because the Gladbach one is not like the Freiburg one at all, there are no cute little faces behind the doors, just wrapped pieces of chocolate. As for Freiburg whilst I may not have them in chocolate form this year I won’t be abandoning them, even though it looks like they are destined to spend Christmas in the relegation places again and relegation itself is looking more and more definite with every passing weekend. It’s not a lot of fun watching them at the moment but I’m not going to abandon them just because of that. I could never envision following another team anyway, so no matter what I wanted I’m with them.
Ever since I got back from London I’ve been saying I’d write a post about the trip and the game, and post pictures of the autographs I was lucky enough to get. Not to forget the pictures I got of Jogi which are even more precious. But like so many other things I just let it slide. It’s not just that I don’t care about anything, it’s that I can’t even pretend I care. So since I got back I’ve pretty much done nothing. Unless you count of course writing extremely depressing stories late at night when I should be asleep, that I have no problem doing. The helpful insight I got from someone on that count was “maybe you’re writing depressing stuff because that’s how you feel.” No really, because I hadn’t worked that out. Just how stupid do people think I am? Anyway that sounds suspiciously like the beginnings of a rant so I’ll stop that there. Point is I haven’t done a whole lot, I’ve kept up with my Jogi videos but it doesn’t feel the same anymore. It feels like I’m just doing it because I don’t know what else to do. Which is pretty much how everything else feels too.
I’ve tried to resist the temptation of simply sleeping all day but it’s not easy, especially when I can’t get a decent amount of sleep at night. So that I don’t get stuck thinking obsessive thoughts I’ve been spending a lot of time reading, that’s probably the only good thing to come out of all this. The fact I’ve started reading like I used to again. I can’t even remember the last time I got through ten books in a month. That was my target for November, to read ten books. Just so I didn’t feel like a complete failure and that I could at least do that.
Though even that has slowed down over the past few days. All of a sudden out of nowhere everything just came to a shuddering halt, reality once more making it’s presence felt and reminding me that life sucks and this is the way things are. Almost like the universe is putting me back in my place, reminding me not to be too happy after all the excitement of the London trip. It doesn’t seem like it at all right now but I had been trying hard not to feel sorry for myself. But the truth is things have been slipping and I can’t ignore it anymore. Stuff is piling up everywhere, both in a physical and a virtual sense. I dare not even look at my main e-mail inbox anymore because from the few times I have been brave enough to take a peek I’ve seen the ever growing piles of increasingly irate messages. I should have known something was really wrong when I stopped opening, sorting and otherwise dealing with my sticker collection. When I don’t care about or have energy for simple repetitive tasks like that then I know I’m really in trouble. But still I keep collecting things because what else would I do? I don’t know how to do anything else. It’s not like I’m going to go outside and make friends or something, there is no real life to be had. It’s the collectibles and the stories or nothing. Maybe if I wait this out they’ll make me feel happy again, like they used to do.
Posted in Autism, Books, Die Mannschaft, Fußball, Germany, Jogi Löw, Manuel Neuer
Tagged Autism/Asperger's Syndrome, Depression, Jerome Boateng, Joachim "Jogi" Löw collectibles, Manuel Neuer collectibles
The one final thing I needed to go right this week has happened and that is of course Matze being in the squad for the England friendly, if he didn’t make the squad then that would have been a huge disappointment. Whether he’ll play or not I have no idea but if he does or not I’ll still get to be in the same stadium as him for 90 minutes or so. I’m so glad he’s there on the list, not least because I was already disappointed even before the squad was announced. Because of course I knew before hand that Manuel Neuer, Jonas Hector, Shkodran Mustafi and Thomas Müller wouldn’t be on there. Unfortunately the only version of Manuel Neuer that will be in England next week is my soft toy of him. What are the odds that four of my favourite players would get injured when Germany are going to England, a real stroke of bad luck. If my ticket hadn’t arrived this morning I was seriously starting to doubt if I’d be going either. I’ve gotten everything perfectly organised for this trip and the one piece that wasn’t yet in place was the one I could do little about. The ticket line was unhelpful to say the least, when you’ve spent that much money, bought non-refundable/changeable train tickets and are leaving the day before the game the last thing you want to hear is “it should be there by the middle of the week.” It doesn’t matter now because I have the ticket but that’s not the point at all. What is the point is I have the ticket, now I have no more excuses left, now I really have to go.