To not be yourself

No Time to Waste

Fill in the blank: “Life is too short to _____.” Now, write a post telling us how you’ve come to that conclusion. (Thanks for suggesting this prompt, theempathyqueen!)

To be anyone other than the person you want to be, to live in accordance with who and what other people think you should be instead of what you want yourself.  If that means having to take a different path and having to go your own way, so be it.

How did I come to that conclusion? I don’t know, spending years listening to other people tell me what I should be doing and obliging and not thinking too much about what I wanted. I may as of yet been unable to figure out what I want to do with my life (or indeed if there is anything) but I’ll be damned if I spend my time living in accordance with what someone else deems “the rules” or an acceptable way to live. You should do the things that make you happy, even if other people think they are strange.

Last week in a conversation about growing up and all that stuff, I asked the question, “if you can live by yourself, take care of yourself somewhat and hold down a job, then surely the rest of it is no-one else’s business?” I mean NTs don’t have to have “age/socially appropriate interests” do they? No, they can be as weird as they want. I think I understand now, what the difference is between an autistic special interest and the NT equivalent. It’s the NT can live the rest of their life unhindered, it doesn’t dominate them in quite the same way, as someone said online once, they possess a certain flexibility that is absent in the autistic person. And they have other interests too, it’s not quite so narrow and focused with them.

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